Well, it has been a year and three months since I came home from the hospital. Not that I'm counting...
My life now is the same in some ways, but in many ways, it is so different. There are times that I feel like I have a completely new life - an opportunity to be a better mom, a better wife, a better teacher, a better person. When I came home, I couldn't use my right arm or hand at all. Now, because of my incredible therapist, I can do TEN push-ups, and I am slowly regaining movement in my hand and fingers. I still have a ways to go, and there will be some surgeries in my future, but I am getting there!
There is a good possibility I won't ever play with that hand again. Sometimes it makes me so sad I can hardly bear it. And sometimes I forget and want to demonstrate something for a student or play the teacher accompaniment, and it hits me like a boulder that I can't. I'm adapting, though, and playing some with my left hand. I even have ordered some solo pieces for the left hand. One day I will play them! Hahaha! Oh, I will do it. I will play...it just takes a while for me to get used to the idea.
Change is hard, and if you know me even a little, you know that I am utterly and completely resistant to change. But, I can eventually adapt to change. With the help of my amazing friends and family, I am adjusting to the new normal. I look forward to the day my new life becomes just a plain old regular life.
We all have our struggles to face and get through. I am learning to take them one step at a time and one day at a time. I hope you do the same. You are not alone in this world. Lean on the people who love you, and let them help you. Every moment is an opportunity...use them wisely. These are the lessons I am learning as I live my new life. And it is a good one!
